Monday, December 5, 2011

I made it through!












So, was this time of year a great time to have my bariatric surgery? At first I thought no, but now I am glad I did it when I did. Believe it or not, I believe it has made me stronger. I had my surgery 2 months before Halloween, 3 months before Thanksgiving, and my twins 10th birthday, and 4 months before Christmas. Why is this such a big deal you ask? Its a big deal, because when youre someone who LOVES to eat, and you wait anxiously for holiday food, and then when it gets here, you cant have any of it. Its not easy! Well I thought it wasnt going to be anyhow.
I am so proud of myself, that I didnt even have the urge to try the pies, and the cake and ice cream, or candies that were presented before me.

I am VERY proud of myself!!!!

I never would have thought that I could do this. Maybe its just the insecurities within me, but I didnt have the confidence in myself, and now I do!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

The big day!

Yeah, dont I look SOOOO happy?!?


So I woke up at 3:30 a.m on August 30, 2011, ready for my life to change, and boy did it ever! The ride to the hospital was the longest ride of my life. I was scared, excited, nervous, and more ready that I have ever been. After an hour and a half of driving, we had made it to the hospital, and the past 5 months seemed as if they had all been a figment of my imagination. Was I really ready for this? Do I really realize how much this is going to change my life, my health, and my overall lifestyle? Was I prepared? I thought I did,and I thought I was but I don't think anyone is ever prepared for something so life changing.

As they took me back, to get my weight, take 50 pints of blood, and other prep, I began to feel flush. Was this really happening? I was scared out of my mind, but then, all of the things that were going to change in my life, began to roll through my head, and I became relaxed and ready for this.
I knew from the start that this wasn't going to happen overnight, but just knowing all the things I will be able to do after this, was enough to reassure me that I had made the right decision.

My amazing husband was there every step of the way, and he held my hand until I walked back for surgery. The start of my new life, was finally here, but crap....I gotta pee!

The easy way out? Yeah, not so much!


Okay, so no one knows this, but on August 30, 2011 I had gastric bypass surgery. I didn't tell anyone that I was having the surgery, because of all the controversy surrounding it. I frankly just didn't want to listen to people, and to be honest, I didn't care what anyone else thought.

Just to begin, I did this by choice, but it was because I HAD NO CHOICE. What? That doesn't make sense you say. Oh but it does. I have been overweight most all of my life, and when I became severely ill in December 2009, I began to gain even more, and at a quick rate. Every single time that I went to the doctor, they found something new wrong and added a new medication. I became diabetic, developed high blood pressure (stroke level high, even on meds) and high cholesterol. I have arthritis, muscle atrophy, among other things, and I was on the high risk list for stroke, among other issues. After the 2nd med for diabetes was added, and the 3rd for high blood pressure, I became VERY scared, and wanted a way to change it. I have always been an active person, and very healthy other than being overweight, and I was not an over eater. I got yelled at all the time, because I didn't eat enough. Bottom line is, that I was slowly dying, while my husband and kids watched, so I had to make a choice. Lay down and die, or do something, and I chose to do something.


I began to look into the RNY, and went to a meeting with the surgeon, and my journey began. My surgeon, John Huse in Carmel at St. Vincent, was amazing! He told me that I was an excellent candidate for gastric bypass, and that this surgery could save my life. I was in! In March of 2009 I decided it was time to start living again, so I began the process to get surgery scheduled. I had to collect information from all of my doctors in re to my health, continue to see a dietician, and get a psychological evaluation. I knew I would be fine in all regards, except when it came to the psych eval. Not worried because Im crazy, but worried, because let's face it, we all have skeletons and I was terrified that some of my previous emotional baggage would throw me out of the chance to save my life. However, after 4 LONG months, I had all requirements passed, and was finally able to schedule surgery.
I got the phone call in July that I was scheduled for August 30, 2011 @ 6am....I was excited and scared at the same time. I was so ready for my new life to begin, but so much bad has happened to me in the past few yearss, that I was always waiting for that one more bad thing to creep up. After many sleepless nights and stressful days, I had made it! It was the morning of my surgery. The 1st day of the rest of my life was finally here, and I was STOKED!!!!!

Monday, October 31, 2011

Halloween


So, today is Halloween. The day that all the little ghouls and goblins come out to play. The day that all adults can dress up and pretend to be children, and all the "good" girls can let their inner slut show.
The past few years, I have been out of commission, so I haven't enjoyed Halloween, or many other holidays for that matter, however this year, I am feeling better, and I'm ready to do this! It does seem as though, the more interested I get in Halloween, the less interested my children become. My girls are excited to be dressing up, but the boys, not so much. My oldest daughter is going as a vampiress, and my youngest daughter a beautiful witch. My boys on the other hand, oldest is a crazy redneck, and since hes "country" anyhow, he doesn't have to change much, and my youngest just wants to wear a devil mask, but were gonna "make" him wear a red cloak so he will actually be in costume. ~Let the festivities begin!!! Everyone be safe, and HAVE FUN! HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

All About Amber

♥♥♥♥ I'm a 32 year old hard headed, warm hearted, music lovin, optimistic, family oriented wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend, who loves movies, and spending time with my family. I get goosebumps when I watch Dirty Dancing, or the dancing scene from Footloose, and I cry when I watch The green mile. I will do almost anything for anyone, and sometimes I get screwed, however, it will only happen once!! I have an amazing husband, 4 wonderful children, more than anyone could ever ask for. I have an amazing husband, and 4 beautiful children. In the past few years, my life has seen a lot of ups and downs, and I have fought through them, with the help of my amazing husband. ♥♥♥♥